Realizations, Learning and Living

As I transitioned from doing more
than flipping my whole life upside down
by marrying and moving
within months,
to a 5 day a week contract job
plus all else I was doing
my level of stress
and managing more exceptions
and trying to wade through them all
was getting to be quite difficult
for me.


I can't do it all.
There are situations where one has
no choice and then there
are some where one has a choice.

 

I really appreciated this post by

Katherine

as she realized what she can and can't do.

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I realized and so did Orthoman that

I would burn out if I continued at the pace

I had been going at. So...

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I stayed home today.

I am going to bake my cake.

I am going to church.

I am going to renegotiate with my work to

cut it down for the next while to 4 days a week.

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I meet with the cater next week.

I love my God willing future

 photographer

who I talked to on the phone last night.

I see a woman about helping me

decorate the reception hall in

about two weeks.

I cannot put these things off or

reschedule.

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I will be traveling a lot in May.

Most likely once in June

and once in July.

Moving Cleo and belongings

sometime after July.

Marrying after August.

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It is a daily and weekly effort to figure out

what is working and what is not

in terms of planning,

health and well-being

and new-life

building.

So today I accomplished

something unexpected

and something that brought some

order, peace and balance 

to my life.

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See that coffee table?

It's empty save the books.

See the bags on the shelves?

Bagged books waiting

to be given away.

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This whole figuring out what to do

what I can and can't do

and how to communicate it

is at times very tiring

but with God's mercy

I will be able

to continue to do just that.